Wow! almost 2 years has flown by! I didn't even get to document my 2nd born's life at all! Except with photos, of course. It's amazing how days and weeks and months just fly by you! I swear it's Monday now but with a blink, the week just passes you by and it's Monday....again. Like WTF? Can we slow down a bit? I barely can remember Nathan as a baby and he's 22 months now! He was just a little baby last year! With the second baby, everything seems like a blur~~~ and here i am...with an almost 2 year old! And a 4 year old that went through a crazy growth spurt and just growing before my eyes! I keep thinking he's 5 for some reason! And every single person that have asked how old Max was always says "Wow! He's tall/big!" Seriously. Every. Single. Person. I am also picking up more photography sessions and somehow ended up doing dohls (Korean first birthday). It's always been a dream to work with amazing peoples and get to document their little moments and i am so so grateful and fortunate to have worked my way up to the point where i don't need to stress about booking a session or finding jobs. But i'm starting to feel a little burned out. It's sort of my fault too. I just keep booking and booking and over working and taking on more than i can handle~ I really need to learn to say no and have some control about how much i book a month because it's really starting to affect my sleep! I literally have 2 jobs. Cause 1st and foremost, i am a stay-at-home Mom. Yes, that's a job! A really exhausting one. Then after my boys have gone to sleep, i work and edit photos up until 3AM to even 5AM. And my boys wake up around 7AM-8AM...so, yea. I really need to find a balance and slow down a bit. I'm really, really trying to find a balance but i'm at a point where i feel like i just want to give up. Sometimes i feel like... maybe i don't want to offer photography sessions anymore. I know i love photography and i love how it connects me to people... but i really want to document my own life, document my own kids life. I think that's where i see myself going. Which is why i want to start blogging again. I just want to stop and focus on me and my life as a mom and put more time into my kids. But who knows. Maybe i'll just limit my bookings to 2 a month? Because really, my 1st job is so tiring but so rewarding... and i really like my time on my bed....snoozing! Anyways, that's that. I've been nagging my mind about getting behind the computer and blog. But then, days passed. Then weeks. Then months. So i finally said, gahhhh$!#$@T@$%%!%(#@ just blog already! So now i have. And finally checked off something on my to-do list ;P Ha!
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